See the Art in Me

(lights fading in…)

So she walked and tried to feel the warmth of the sun as it rose
Tells herself, this is a new day. There is a sense of hope.
She still haven’t had any sleep, she even had nothing to eat
But she would manage to smile at every person she would meet

Her eyes try to smile as she would meet the guy
But all that she sees is enough
for her heart to believe him not

Though he gives her what she wants
Make her feel she’s all, and gave a lot
She still feels the same old crap
Coz she finds out he cannot…

Give himself… Be himself…
He keeps on putting up a show instead
There’s so much pride
He always hides
but then next morning to her he’d glide

And get what he wants
answer back coz yes he can
manipulate and stun
in a subtle way then run

So here she’s left in an alley by herself
nothing is ever real
Everything just sucks
but she would hold on still

The movie in her mind
they held hands and walked around as if there was no time
She wasn’t left… their love was kept
real… to the point nothing else mattered but their thing

But twas still a movie in her mind
“The dream that filled her head…”
Coz as she went back to space and time
She saw it happen and was not surreal

Just not her. but another he held hands with
ever since.

I walked away and pretended I’m ok…
Paranoid as I see several eyes
that seemed to know the feelings i have inside
Dogs barking, they started following me
and alone i tread the dark

I kept on looking back wishing you’d shout back
“wait, I’ll hold your hand forever ’til the fear you have is gone”
I resisted the urge to know you didn’t follow along
and it was just the wind, just the wind beside me

Then I stopped and stood at a corner
as I look at the droplets of tears on my toes
Endlessly counting them until it rained and it hid the tear’s flow
i still never know… I still want to know

yourr name lingers as I look at the lights
on this highway which was once familiar
but yesterday I craved for comfort from an umbrella
It stood with me where we used to stop

I choked when you saw my bloodshot red eyes
don’t want you to know they were the traces of my cry
Will you ever see what’s the reason of my sigh
Will you ever notice my heart don’t wanna lie
It’s a fact I’m drowning in the thought of you

I give because I’ve received alot
and I forgive ‘coz grace abounded much
It’s crazy I am craving for a high
like the moments i was bright
though i don’t get to sleep at night

I do miss everything now
will everything still happen around
though you see it’s just my own illusion
I love coz I do want to be loved somehow…